Actually, Where is my life going???

Hi everyone in yonder land,


Yonder land.... wonderland..... neverland..... whatever..... 


As a child I always used to wonder (when we were all faced with the mundane and long lost ordeal of facing the daily English classes which did not even have the smallest glimmer of interest and absolutely no hope of ever attaining any) about why did Shakespeare spell English to an utterly ridiculous level of usage which almost nearly sounded like French, about which I admit I had as much knowledge as Barrack Obama had about Bommidala Pulusu. But I could almost certainly have vouched for that it was not English let alone one worth praising to a throat swelling level about. 


The same experiment of modifying English to sound like French or Spanish or German or konkini when tried by me in my term examinations  almost always met with the same results- my friends ending up laughing on the floor and our highly talented and junior Shakespeare Mr. Vaakpati Raju (who had the extreme privilege and once in a lifetime task of teaching an absolutely out of the world - both literally and practically - batch of students) praising Bharath or should I tell Balath or Bhagath that " For the shameless face smile is only ornament ", of course our dear Mr. cowsick would be kind enough to translate into telugu as something like - "Sigguleni mokhaniki navve  singaram".


I learnt a valuable lesson then, Some things do not pay to be imitated upon. And, edava pani nuvvu chesina, topic pakkavaadipaina divert cheyyatam nerchuko.


Gone are those good old days when life was full of fun. Not because it was an atmosphere suiting fun, but fun adapted to forget the atmosphere. They were days when doing wrong was not considered heroic, but people who get caught doing the wrong thing colourfully handed and beaten even more colourfully but never even came close to admitting it  considered heroes. Those were THE times when freedom fighters were in the heart and movie stars on the lips. Patriotism was in the brain, but being as rebels to the school was even more cool.


Now where actually are we standing? The same people who once said and believed " Snehame ra pranam, Snehame na jeevitham " are now actually begging " Darling, Nee kanna naaku evaru ekkuva cheppu. Nee Kosam naa pranam aina plate lo petti isthaanu ( seasoning optional ) ". Enti ra veedu sudden ga intha philosophy start chesaadu anukovaddu. Enduku ante idhi oka rakam ga philosophy ee.


Edho life lo ala kulli jokulu vesukuntu ala gadipesaanu, ippudu choosthe life ee pedda joke la aipotundi and adhi almost kulli pothund,i paiga aa kulli potunnadaani chuttu eegalu okati. 


On the outside antha baagane undhi.... kaani enduko life lo aim chesinantha santhosham ledhu... evado okadu annadu " premisthe daaniki minchina aanandam ledhu ani ". But naa experience lo nenu eppudu adhi evedi deggere choodaledhu... chala chala gaadam ga love chesi sakam jeevitham dobbinchi kunna vaadi deggere kuda ". Love chesina naa prathi edava friend ki help chesanu, adi ento naaku chala edava friends unnaru. Actually naaku unna vaalla lo almost andaru valle. Daani lo sagam mandhi paigaane love lo munigi anatomy lab lo exhibit skeleton la paiki telaru. Ippudu enti ra ila ayyindhi ante " nijam ga premisthe daaniki minchina aanandam ledhu ra " ane antaaru, kaani bonus ga " lovers pette torture kanna doola emi ledhu ra " antaaru . 


Sarle paapam ammayilu andaru inthe anukundaama ante, naaku unna girl friends ( not girlfriends, there is a minute but vast difference between them which I am sure can be put forward as a perfectly simple and logically deducible sentence with a clear and pristine meaning as GIRL's who are my friends) ki kuda adhe situation. Enti ra idhi iddariki ilaage undhi ani brain ni baaga train chesi strain chesaanu, almost manchi 'palle velugu' bus ni anakapalli road lo 120kmph speed lo drive chesthe andulo unna passengers ki vaachinantha vaachindhi. Chivariki ilanti simple vishayalu naa lanti serious brain ki artham kaavu ani vadilesanu. Aa taravatha love anna vaadiki toolu teesanu. 


Aina kaalam kalisi raakapothe, naalanti pillalu chesedhi emi untundhi?. One fine morning naa life lo golden days aipoyayi..... harsha gaadu prema lo paddadu!!!


Taravatha emundhi, 3 days happy... then start problems....


Ani paatha kota srinivas rao dialogue kodathaanu anukunnra.... antha ledhu.... love ni mariiii antha comedy ga teseyakandi.... enduku ante " premisthe daaniki minchina aanandam ledhu ". Avunu, ee dialogue kodotunnadhi nene.... Kaani prati aanandaaniki venaka oka dukkham karchitanga untundhi..... enti ra veedu intha scene chestunnadu tokkalo oka love story vesukoni ani choodaddu.... evadi gola vaadiki Geetanjali!!!


Naa geetanjali eppudu 5 years back modalu ayyindhi.... andulo modati 2 years 'Mounamelanoyi', Interval lo 'Devedas' ( with mandu episode ) and next 2 years 'premichukundam ra' nadichindi... ippudu oka title leni Mani Ratnam movie nadustundi, climax varaku em jarugutundho artham kaadu.....!!! 


Nijam cheppali ante naaku tanante pranam, chala chala.... raktam chindinche antha pranam.... Ottu.... arey, eppudu lenidhi blood kuda donate chesenu ante raktham chindinche antha pranam unnatte kada.... nammandi... idhi emi punch dialogue kaadu... Naa pancha pranala nundi vachhe dialogue.... ( see, I am a poet, and now I can prove it ).


Kaani em cheayamantaaru.... andari dhisti tagilindhi.... kalasi melasi undaalisina jeevitham kampu kodutundhi..... ( appudappudu ).....


Actually its not bad because of anyone.... but due to me.... ya, maybe I made a bit too many of sacrifices. Maybe I did not give too much of time for her to understand me.... Maybe I was and am really the reason to blame for her feeling that I am not understanding her.... 


Sakam karanam nooti doola..... saradaga joke chesi chesi... ippudu em cheppina mundu '' cha... nijam cheppu '' antaadi.... emaina ante.... '' nenu saradaga annanu ra.... naaku eppudu nee medha doubt ledhu antaadhi ''. 


Actually I knew from before hand itself from my dear friend Pawan Kalyan and almost similar friends in my childhood that '' aaduvaari maatalaku arthaale veerule '' ani.... but evadu avi mari intha teda ani cheppaledhu enti ra.... 


One moment its '' Life rocks '' and the next moment its '' The Pursuit of Happiness ''.


Rooju antha baagane untundhi.... sudden ga enduko oka perfectly justified reason ki naaku kopam vastundhi... Appudu tanu vachhi emi teliyanattu ga oka innocent face petti '' emi ayyindhi '' ani adugutaadhi.... Manam paatha eastman colour movie lo hero laaga emi maatladam.... paiga mokham oka angle lo pedatham... Adhi emaina signal anukunta, ventane tanu aa scene nundi walkout chestundhi... emayyindhi ra ani nuvvu aalochinche lope tanu naa medha alaka modalu pedutundhi.... Idhi kudirithe konni gantalu, lekapothe oopika unte kooni roojulo avutundhi.....


Appudu manalo unde oka almost romeo antha amara premikudu aalochinchi, tana medha kopaanni tyagam chesi tanani bratimaladadam start chestaadu and tanamedha tane kulli jookulu kuda vesukuntaadu, chance dorikithe thittukuntaadu kuda.... aina tanalo juliet baaga dobbi tini padukuntundhemo, appude bayatapadadu..... konni gantala taravatha thanu sudden ga, oka milky face petti, moist eyes tho '' it's alright '' ani antaadhi, paiga nee joke ki oka chinni navvu istundhi kuda... daanitho nijam ga ( really, truly ) nee gunde jallumantundhi..... edho appude neeku edho microsoft lo partnership istunnantha anandamga face pedathaavu.....


Ala konni gantala taravatha nee daddi brain ki eppudo powercut taravatha current vachhinattu oka bulb velugutundhi... '' Intaki ippudu tappu naadha leka tanadha '' ani??. Idhe question tanani adagaleka, nuvvu mingaleka appatiki migilina konni hairs ni peekkoleka... ponile ani nee nooti dula aagaleka oka vela tanani adigeve anuko..... tanu ninnu ventane serious ga face petti '' asalu appudu emi jarigindho cheppu '' ani tanaki assalu gurthulenattu adugutundhi.... appatike dobbina nee brain ki kottaga 'Short term memory loss' kuda vachhi neeku adhi tinnamga gurthuku raaledhu anuko...


Appudu kothi chethiki kobbari chippa dorikinattu tanu ninnu oka oopu ooputundhi '' nuuvu eppudu inthe... nannu assalu artham chesukovu '' ani... Neeku 'I Love You' cheppataaniki enni roojulu teesukundo kaani, ventani 'I Hate You ani maatram chebutundhi..... Dannitho neeku malli tension start.....


Inni tensions lo neeku sudden ga oka fine day eppudaina nuuvu haapy lenappudu, neeku nee lover okka kshanam ( adhi kuda kashtame ) gurthuku raanappudu neeku vachhe oke okka question " Actually, Where is my life going?? ". Appudu tanu edho nee mind ni read chestunnattu " Oye, nuvvu maatram life lo settle avvakapothe mana pelli kashtam " ani antaadhi. 


Avunu " lovers pette torture kanna doola emi ledhu "............!!!!!!!!


Idhi prastutaaniki naa paristithi.... Koncham Ishtam, Koncham Kashtam..... Kaani vadili velthe naake nashtam..... ( see, I am really a poet, and now I can again prove it ).


hmm..... so, mari ika kada kanchiki, nenu naa kalalloki....!!!